The world was already old when I was born. I tumbled
into its ancient, incomplete story just as one day I will drop out of it,
unnoticed by most and soon to be forgotten. Even the memory of me will one day
be gone; it will probably survive a while in the minds of my grandchildren but
then people will stop talking about me, descendants will look at family
photographs, point and ask who I am, and no-one will have an answer. My own
grandparents' faces are still easily recalled among my siblings but my children
cannot recognise them. My great grandparents are now only dark, faceless
impressions, ghostly memories, though I do remember the hearses that took away
their bodies so I assume they must have been real at some time. By the time I
follow after them there will be no trace left to say that they were here other
than faded ink on parchment that itself will one day crumble and fall apart.
But for now my birth and childhood are vividly held in my parents' minds. My
brothers hold other parts, and yet more episodes sit half-forgotten in the
unstable memories of school friends. Most of the people I have met along the
road have already thought it not important to hold onto whatever snatches of
life we shared briefly. My children take care of other impressions and my wife
of others still. As one by one their memories or bodies will fail, a part of me
will die till there is nothing left. Tuesday, 10 May 2016
Ancient and forgetable.
The world was already old when I was born. I tumbled
into its ancient, incomplete story just as one day I will drop out of it,
unnoticed by most and soon to be forgotten. Even the memory of me will one day
be gone; it will probably survive a while in the minds of my grandchildren but
then people will stop talking about me, descendants will look at family
photographs, point and ask who I am, and no-one will have an answer. My own
grandparents' faces are still easily recalled among my siblings but my children
cannot recognise them. My great grandparents are now only dark, faceless
impressions, ghostly memories, though I do remember the hearses that took away
their bodies so I assume they must have been real at some time. By the time I
follow after them there will be no trace left to say that they were here other
than faded ink on parchment that itself will one day crumble and fall apart.
But for now my birth and childhood are vividly held in my parents' minds. My
brothers hold other parts, and yet more episodes sit half-forgotten in the
unstable memories of school friends. Most of the people I have met along the
road have already thought it not important to hold onto whatever snatches of
life we shared briefly. My children take care of other impressions and my wife
of others still. As one by one their memories or bodies will fail, a part of me
will die till there is nothing left.
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